Letting go of perfectionism at my own pace

I am now letting go of perfectionism at my own pace. Up until now, I was pressuring myself to overcome it. Defining how that’s supposed to look subconsciously set a sense of urgency internally. This was another way my desire for perfectionism was manifesting.

A few days ago, I spent a whole day just wanting to sleep, listened to music, read, cried, and released the tension that had built up within. Many factors contributed to this emotional build-up but at some point that day something changed. A light bulb switched on: I decided to stop torturing myself with the baggage that was passed down to me. It felt so freeing.

The heavy burden of social conditioning, childhood subconscious programming, others’ expectations of me, and the fear of not fitting the “good girl” profile got thrown in an invisible trash bin for good. Invisible middle fingers in the air! I said to myself: “Let’s go enjoy failing. Let’s just intentionally allow failure in order to succeed.” I decided to go and make mistakes, to fail forward. How liberating!

I don’t know who will show up at the end of this transformation but I am excitingly looking forward to meeting her. This new version of me that is unraveling will surely be magnificent. And, it’s starting with ridding myself of my own “bs”: not being clear on what I truly want, doubting my greatness, overthinking instead of taking action, taking on the full responsibility to keep the peace, giving people with mediocre behavior more than two chances, and more.

Letting go of perfectionism at my own pace is about to significantly change my life these next few months.